Thursday, January 21, 2010

Eva is loved


{Oma with Eva}
Her name is Eva. 1pound

All babies touch our hearts , we love them well before they arrive , too many babies are lost to those who love them , missed by those who needed them .

We were together ,as we are for celebration we are there in times of loss and sadness .
Saying good bye is so hard .

Thankfully my sister in law made it through the delivery without any medical complications , with her last birth we were really scared because of her grave health due to HELLP ,thankfully there were no problems with bleeding , especially since she has been on blood thinners for the entire pregnancy which was a great relief. A little bit of grace.

We shared this experience regardless of how painful it is , we all need to stand by each other in these hard times .

The nurse was truly amazing , she treated Eva with the same dignity and respect any and all babies deserve , she called her princess . I am still in awe of her , this being a hospital that deals with a large number of high risk pregnancies they have an increased number of still births so they know exactly how to handle these situations and make them as gentle as possible. Being through two such sad arrivals with my brother and his wife , this wonderful care makes all the difference.

There were 5 other families experiencing the same painful loss along with ours that night.

We all spent time with her ,we got to dress her swaddle her , love her , take photos of her , we will always remember our time together.
I thank you for all your love and well wishes , you amaze me , so many of you have suffered the loss of a baby , I am so sorry for that .
Thank you for surrounding me with support.
Eva 01/19/10 and Bella 01/02/09 sisters together forever , rest in peace babies.



39 comments:

Worship4Him said...

*Tears* And Love! XOXO Amber

Low Tide High Style said...

Saying goodbye is so important, I'm glad you were supported by the hospital staff and that you and your family were able to have that special time together.

Kat

onelittlemustardseed said...

Chris, what a beautiful dedication to Eva's short time here with you all. Your family is not far from people's thoughts & prayers!

I hope you and your family can feel the collective heartfelt prayers & love being sent outwards & upwards from all the people who truly care! I hope this will in some small way give you all some comfort during this very sad & difficult time.

Megan said...

I have been that mom.

31 weeks pregnant... holding an almost 2 lb baby that was no longer alive.

Naomi Elizabeth would be in kindergarten this year.

God is gracious.

So glad you celebrated life. It will mean more than you know (in the years to come) .

Praying for your family.

...... Kristina ...... said...

My love and prayers are with you all,my heart breaks for you this is so so sad.
God Bless x
Love Kristina XxX

Joshua and Mallory said...

My prayers are with you all daily. I know Eva is in Heaven dancing with Jesus and believe she is one happy, perfect baby. I wish you all the best.

Hella said...

yes she is loved and forever will be!
her oma
xoxo
(thanks for playing such an important role, chris!)

SeaWorthy said...

Oh, Chris..There really arent any great words from me, only tears and hope. Hope for you and yours to get through this together as gracefully and lovely as you have shown in this post. Im so so sorry.
This news just breaks my heart. Big hugs to you and yours on this sad day.
Lisa
Coastal Nest

Autum said...

That photo touches my heart so deeply. I too held and loved a granddaughter whose soul had gone to heaven before her tiny body came into this world. I sat with my daughter as she bravely endured what to me was unimaginable. It was a heartbreaking experience, but one I hold dear.
My prayers are with your family!

Amanda said...

I have a little man here with me tha I adore as well as two sweet angels resting in heaven, waiting to meet their mama. Waiting to meet, me. There are no words to heal this. Only the comfort and love and strength given between family members and dearest friends. Just remember as you all mourn this newest lost little angel that your tears are powerful. "There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are messengers of overwhelming grief...and unspeakable love." All of our family's love and hope to you and yours in this difficult time.

Hiker - Kelly B said...

:'( I'm sorry for your family's loss.

♥Amber Filkins♥ said...

I am so, so sorry. My heart just breaks.

Bunny Wilson said...

We've been there and are holding you close in prayer right now.

Jen Kershner said...

Chris,
I'm so, so sorry to hear about the loss and sadness your family is going through. I send you all hugs and prayers. Jen

Deb said...

What a wonderful post about such a sad and difficult time.

Hello Lover... said...

So glad your family had some special time with little Eva, it's so good to have fond memories to look back on despite the sadness. I'll be praying for peace and comfort for your family during this hard time.

Amnah said...

I'm so sorry for both of your losses :*(

Debbie said...

I'm so, so sorry. We are praying for your whole family. God bless.

Nina Diane said...

~hugs~

Chemin des Muguets said...

I am so sorry to read here of your loss. May you find comfort in that during her short time with you, little Eva was so loved. That love with endure. Your beach picture tribute is especially touching.

Bless you all,

Marjorie

. said...

Dear Chris, my prayers are with you and your family.
sincerely
erika

marble rose said...

I feel honoured and humbled by this post. God Bless Little Eva.


Fleur
xxx

northern cottage said...

My heart is so heavy when I hear of someone experiencing this horrible loss. We lost our 3 1/2 month old son 10 years ago this week & it still feels like yesterday. And yet time does ease the weight of this experience. I know all too well ... a mama who loses her little one has arms that ache & that ache never goes away! Our thoughts & prayers are with the family now & in the days ahead.

JenLo said...

You can just see she was a beautiful little bundle of joy. Praying God's grace and comfort on you guys as you travel through this sad period.

Jo said...

I can't even begin to imagine the pain you all must be going through. My thoughts are with you *hugs*
Jo x

Magic Brush said...

Wow... that just sucks!!!! (crying) My heart breaks for your family. I am so sorry. Continuing to pray for you and them and praying for peace for you all. I'm so glad you had great care... that really does make a huge difference.

Sue said...

Eva will be greeted by her sister, Bella, and 9 little angels my husband and I lost, when she arrives in that one special Place meant for the most precious of angels.
My heart is with you, your sister-in-law and your brother. My hubby and I were never given the opportunity to hold our wee ones. It must be very special, I think, to be able to celebrate life, to connect and to say goodbye. I pray your sister-in-law will be able to heal in her own time. My thoughts and prayers are with her and all of your family.

Silvia said...

I am so sorry for your loss. Many hugs to you and your family. xoxo

Judy said...

My heart and prayers go out to you and your family during this time. How wonderful the hospital staff understood your grief and pain and honored your right to spend time with little Eva.

God bless,
Judy

Andrea said...

I am so sorry! My little boy passed away suddenly when he was six months old. It's so very hard. My thoughts and prayers will be with your family at such a difficult time.
Andrea
Wyatt's mommy

Lynda said...

I only just found your blog and am heartbroken to read your latest post.. it is always too soon. God bless your family and the little angel Eva.
Love
L

Dee said...

God Bless you and your family. sending hugs.

Lettered Cottage said...

I am so sorry to hear about your family's loss...I can't even begin to imagine the emotions you are all going through. :-( You and your family will be in our prayers Chris.

Layla

Heather said...

Continued love and support and faith in the power of friendship for all of you....

I don't have words, so I won't water this down by trying.

Just, love.

kyle said...

So sorry for your loss.

Sherrie said...

You and your loved ones are in my thoughts and prayers.

ellie said...

Oh my heart is breaking for your family. I'm so saddened by their loss of Bella and Eva. sending lots of hugs and condolances to your SIL and brother.

Laura @ the shorehouse. said...

I have no words. :-(

J.J. said...

I am a little late in telling you ...that I am sorry for you loss...and for your brother and SIL's loss. Such heartache. You wrote so beautifully...about Eva...and family. Many hugs and prayers for you all.